The Soverienty of God

Why do we make decisions sometimes that are not in sync with our personality?  Why do we go through different trials and hardships in our lives?   Why do we have people come in and out of our lives at certain times?   I have always been amazed with life and what happens to you from the time you are brought into this world till the time you are taken out.  Looking back on my life of 29 years I am amazed at what life has thrown my way.  You might look back on your life and wonder what you would have done differently in some situation or what you might have said differently to someone.  The world has a famous phrase for this way of thinking "hind sight is 20/20,"  but is that true or is their a greater force at play?  As I grow deeper in my faith in the Lord I look back at my life and wonder would I have done things differently?  Would I have said or changed something to my past?   With a confident NO I answer those questions.   I don't know if it was the life that God has led me down or his determination to do his will even when I deviate from his plan.   When you sit back and look at all the pieces that seem to "magically" fall into place at exact moments of your life you have to stand in awe of The One who holds all the cards.   For example,  my beautiful wife Cathy.   I truly believe without a shadow of a doubt that she is the one God chose for me.  If you really think about that and think about how we met it might not seem that amazing on the surface, but when you trace the steps that took place before we met its remarkable.  The way that God guided Cathy's grandparents where to live after they had traveled all over the world.  How Kay met Dick and the fact that Dick flew on a plane (which scares him and I to death) to see the love of his life.  When you look at all the pieces that had to fall into place or that God had to rearrange to have Cathy and I met it leaves you speechless.   The sovereignty of God is something that intrigues me more and more as I grow older.  How His beautiful plan works things out even to the smallest details to Glorify Himself.  I was devastated when I found out I had a basal cell skin cancer spot on my eyelid when I was 25.  How could this happen to me?  My fear of needles was only compounded when they were forced to be so close to my eye.  I had so many dreams and thoughts about loosing my eye sight.  However I went through with both surgeries.  During my last surgery I woke up from my anesthesia mid way during the surgery.   I startled the surgeon so badly that he pricked himself with one of the surgical tools.  I knew that he was worried because of all the things that can be transmitted through blood like HIV.   Half way under I made the comment "Don't worry I am clean. Both my wife and I were virgins when we got married."  Then they put me back under and that was all that I could remember.  Weeks later I went back to see the surgeon for a check up.  He was so startled by my comment he asked me more about my life.  I went on to share my faith in the Lord with him.   He broke down in tears in the room and told me of the mistakes hes made in life and how he longs for a deeper relationship with his son.   I don't know to this day if the Doctor has trusted Jesus to be his savior,  but I know now why I went through that in my life.  I fully believe that that experience was so the I could witness to that doctor and given the chance Id do it all over again.  When you step back and look at your life and look for the things that have happened to you I bet you will see the hand of God over every circumstance.   How comforting Romans 8:28 is. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."  Next time you are going through something that you don't understand, trust in God and his beautiful plan.   Hind sight isn't 20/20.   God's sovereignty is perfect.